I come from a divine royal family, I know my destiny and undertand purpose of life,I believe in GOD and love him with all my heart mind and strength, that has never changed. I also believe that everything we want to achieve if we have Faith in GOD we can achieve, I'd like to say that: then, after waiting so long, after a very single day,I decided to WIN. Not waiting on any chance but go search for myself, front every problem as an opportunity to find a solution. See a dessert as a chance to find an oasis. feel the Night and challenge it as an unsolved mistery, live every moment as once in a lifetime second to be happy. Last night I found out that my only rivals were part of my only weakness to face problems,therefore,I realized that this is the only way to improve myself and change for good. This very same day I overcame fear to lose, I started feeling not being afraid of not winning. I realized I was not the same as then and perhaps I never was. I stopped worrying who was the winner and who wos the loser. I founf out I was not the Best and maybe I never was. Right now it's more important to me knowing I'm better off than yesterday. What's more difficult it's not to climb the highest mountain but what's really unacceptable is to fail to try to reach the top. Last Night I decided not to be a reflexion of my very few triumphs in the past and walked out to light on my own light.
GOD has placed so many people on my life's path for me to help them somehow to get to know GOD and The truth and taste of his LOVE, The Enemy has been succesful in some cases, distracting and fooling some of them and putting stumbing blocks on others' ways guiding them down the cliffs, as a matter of fact that has been reason for my tears to come out and wet my pillow at night,feeling pain and heart ache.
Only wet tears on my pillow can testify my feelings in other cases with the ones I have helped and succeded, eventhough I cannot be with the special people GOD placed on my way and I could helped, I can assure that I have WON, GOD has touched their lives and hearts and I have been God's instrument in the process, simply another reason for finding wet and happy tears on my pillow. Spiritual satisfaction rejoices my soul when hearing angelical voices shouting' It's a wrap! John!! I know that this very few special people will be touched forever.
I thank GOD for giving me the most beautiful mother in the world, the strongest, valiant fighter ,defender,and spiritual giant, Best Friend and MOTHER NINIA, My life passed to its second and final stage of realization, I had the company of my mother for 33 years phisically but now I have a complete knowledge that we will be together in another way spiritually, she has been guiding me and guarding me since January 31st 2010 when her body separated her Greater Spirit, this same spirit that grabbed my hand one cold night and slapped my butt to let me know " my NINO, it's me!" Same spirit told me another past night ,"Be brave and you must keep the faith"
That great Spirit reflects a beautiful and real vision in my mind when looking at her photo to SEE her Big Smile and happy face, this same act is repeated when my only niece Belissa, my mother is also spiritually intuned with her, my niece Belissa regularly and habitually says to my mother's photo on shelf when getting up or going to bed " Good Morning mama" or "Good night mama" " Have a good night mama" at the same time I recall telling my mother's photo at the wall " I'll buy you flowers tomorrow linda (cutie)" then she reminds me " remember I like yellow flowers. y enchonche (so what)" she says... funny way. I then add " you're so beautiful, CHULA (Darling)" and the great spirit gives me a big smile.
Some persons and relatives do not perceive my spirit and being, my mother always did, she supported me unconditionally and trusted me at all times, that is why we had the best of secret friendships. this bond will keep on going forever.
My mother's vocal cords were damaged when she had cerebral stroke past december 26th 2009 but that great Mother spirit found a way to communicate with me and the influence of the holly ghost in me helped understand whatever she said. Even few hours before she died she talked to me and told me she was dying when others in my family could not understand a word she said.
Perhaps some forget her life,work,mission and my mother's legacy but she marked me to continue her legacy,respecting my inheritance. that is clear to me!
Quoting this I learned from that great Mother Spirit, " Love is bestowed as a gift, willingly, and without expectation, we don't love to be loved, we love to love" if there would be a quote to preface a book about my great mother spirit that would have been "Keep the Faith and you will achieve even what for the world is impossible not fearing anything or anyone, only Fear GOD and sacrifice everything without any expectations,y enchonche...(so what)"
I still posses Divine values,to mention; my family, my life, and once in a lifetime opportunity to live in this world to serve GOD!, being Happy to realize not everything is gone and donde yet.Living as a simple human being, laughing when is needed, dancing when is time to dance, crying when is needed to cry,suffering when in trouble, getting up on my feet when falling down, It's relevant not to lean on earthly "men's shoulders" but to embrace GOD's lovely arms. JESUS THE CHRIST and my GREAT MOTHER SPIRIT , GOD's teachings and Faith on him will guide me to a lightened Path. We should acknowledge that GOD works misteriously, in ways we cannot yet understand. GOD reads our hearts, he loves us just like we are and expects us to do what's right.
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